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Have you ever had someone tell you something about yourself that truly shocked you? Well I must say I just had that experience tonight. I was talking with someone and they told me that they were truly afraid of me. They felt that I could or would physically harm them. And I must say that this really hit my hard. I do not consider myself to be a violent person, or even have the intent or desire to harm anyone. I understand that I am a big person compared to some other people, but by no means have I ever considered myself an imposing figure. So I was in a state of shock a bit when I was told this. It was not a joke, I could see real fear in their eyes when they said it. I have to admit that I am struggling with this a little bit. The thought that I am capable of striking real and deep fear into the heart of someone really has taken me aback. I am just not sure what to do with that. I feel as if my character has been shaken a bit with this. I am even at a loss of words to really describe how this makes me feel at the moment other than a bit hurt. I know that the intent of this person was not to hurt me but I do not know how else to describe it. I . . . I just really do not know what to do with this. I am not sure how I should feel about this. Or if there is something I should be doing with it at the moment. It is just kinda stuck in my head and spinning there. I mean I believe that anyone is capable of causing harm on another in situations that may arise. I do not believe that there is a person alive now in the past or the future to come that is beyond the reach of violence if the right set of circumstances arise in their life. But to be confronted with this possibility in myself at this moment has just thrown me for a loop and has sent my head and heart reeling. I guess I really should not be surprised that it is true, but I just never have thought of myself in that way. As someone who could intentionally and with premeditation cause harm upon another person. So for all of you out there in the electronic world I would like to hear your thoughts, and if you have ever had feelings or thoughts like this about me I would really like to know. I do not want to the guy walking around that people are afraid of but doesn't seem to notice or care, or maybe even likes it. I want to be approachable and available to people and not have them be frightened of me for any reason if I can help it. so here is your invitation to help me out and maybe find a way to keep from that happening. please post on this or if you want email me at ericl.townsend@gmail.com . thanks.